Its cool.
I lost gold that i never had. lol

one of these days, I'll ike out my style
and feel included.
not like some rag tag drag along.
but its cool
with buddies, you go everywhere.
hopefully they stay buddies. but that's another story
where the wife disdains the guy from going...oh nv mind

should be last post here le ba
new place, new mood, hopefully new maturity.
BYE DESOLACE.

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I <3 Colbie Calliat!!!
and maybe a little Talyor Swift...haha:)

oh yea, just rmb smth from Thailand...
went on 2 dives there, and saw a baby lionfish XD
but the thing was on the way back...
2 Yankees were comparing safety at home and in Thai
and USA failed in comparison
hmmm.

Just dance.
Just do what life gives you
take it live it throw it away.

Its like I've changed.
a year ago, 2 years ago.
a bit of style, a bit of punk
a bit of rebellion, a bit of anxiety
and a lot of regret and anger.

people got together, i got alone.
its like i got thrown the fucker.
but i got buddies. they count for many things.
i got friends. they count for stress and tragedy.
but they have also given me joy and happiness i hardly knew.

its about time i left this place behind.
maybe a new blog with a funky tonk name
or a blog about blueberries
or maybe no blog at all.

haha, used to despise bloggers, not too long ago.
now it seems I'm a blog nut.
can't wait for a week to pass.
I'll love to give it to you.
but the many scenarios that pass thru my head
ring nothing of your sweet smiles.
here goes nothing...

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Thailand ain't not so fail afterall.
beautiful land, beautiful people.
especially people...hot and sexy XD

thought of you every single day.
crazy i know, sigh.
but deep down i do know that I'm not ready for anything yet
not a partner, nor anything of importance in my life.
and neither am i the best choice.

8 days out of S'pore isn't anything new,
but somehow things aren't the same anymore.
different interests, different people, different times.

soft rock. sweet melodies.
a scene by the beach.
with light streaming down from the setting sun
15. never a better time
18. when life begins to bite hard
sigh.
walk with me, walk with me babe.

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the tears won't go,
yet them I can't show.
its torment all the way
yet i put myself through this mess time and time again.
its not fair.

really, its just not fair.
listening to the wrong music as usual.
violin, when I'm depressed.
piano, when I'm sad

both torture and enjoyment.
last night took a lot out of me.
it could have been almost too much.
really really too much.

but I'll just bow my head in shame
because when it comes to you,
I feel like a fool

tear my eyes from love and song
chains that bound me tight and strong
like spider's silk they can't be seen
yet glisten in the moonlight with dewy mist
and when comes the morn from the east
the chains will become ethereal once more

a haunting melody is your scent
the crush of your body against mine

I could have been better off.

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Its Prom and I'm not really rdy yet.
and it just struck me...A's are really over.
damn i failed it.

needs, wants.
all i want is probably just some comfort.
Idk myself.
maybe its this forlorn acceptance.
nothing will happen.
all those silly optimistic phrases people use...
sigh.
no peace, no end.

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can't get shoes.
GG.

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