If I had the one chance to turn back time
to right the mistake I made,
then I'm the one thing I would change,
to make the wrongs right again
Why did I hit you so
when I should have backed down and made my peace
The cut I feel when you reject me
Why did I have to be so foolish
To hear you laugh with me
I would give anything I have
because whatever I have left,
nothing compares to you
I have no solace to hide in this world
you alone I can trust
I can scream and cry, but you won't let me through
The baby in me has no place for you
Why must I let the worst happen to be my best
God knows the design flaw in my plan
I just want to lay in my bed and turtle down
hide under my covers and let reality go
I trampled on the most beautiful flower
now it would take a miracle to return it to life
stained as it may be, I would still want to nurture
the stain would be the clearest reminder
the pain I gave you I cannot take back
why did I take action when it could never be taken back
if only I stuck to words...at least those could heal
but my hand like a branding iron on your face
left the mark I can't erase
Please oh God, I just have this one prayer
to let me have the chance to deliver
on promises once broken I have to repair
on a love that was beautiful
now in ashes of a pyre
All it took was 2mins of anger
to destroy 2 years of endeavour
anything...anything to hold you in my arms again
anything for you to call me "dear" again
but as time goes by the dreadful truth
you moved on and maybe I never will.
It hurts to know that I've destroyed myself
It hurts to feel her pain inside
The cheeks I used to lovingly caress
now stings with betrayal and sadness
How could I have struck her so
I'm a fool to let her go
now all that's left is hate in her eyes
I'm left a pauper of love
It hurts it hurts to see her run
from the devil I've become
a spur of the moment I can't undo
now she's flown what am I to do
Now more than ever I want to kill myself
I hate this life, hate myself
I'm a useless being who can't commit
I hate myself
I FUCKING HATE MYSELF
can't do anything right
come here also fail
at home also fail
like a noose around my neck.
WHO AM I SUPPOSE TO BE
Must be a dream
this sick painful life
so so dysfunctional
FUCK THIS LIFE.
FUCK MYSELF
