March 19, 2011
Guess I'll rather hurt...
than feel nothing at all?
but having been hurt so many times before...
its strange...masochistic
I don't know what I truly want at this point in my life
living day to day...
wasting the hours, hoping that I'll die soon enough perhaps.
Its really pointless I think
I really have nothing much to live for...
my belief in God makes me want to die all the more
but think I'll never see beyond the pearly gates.
I'm just not looking forward to anything
my soul, so broken
hurting so much.
eternity is now...every second aching.
I don't want to live with myself anymore...
wish I could change...
someone brilliant
but this are just my rantings...
haiz. my heart hurts so much
soft lips, gentle caresses.
March 18, 2011
Just felt a little down today...
nothing much, actually haha.
rather nice to sleep and wake in your own bed
guess its a feeling that I've not gotten over :3
red as the blood that you shed from me
dyed unto the soulless strands that adorn your head
I need to stop holding on
and start moving on.
I'm crazy for holding on to this grudge for so damn long...
seriously.
Bored? or very lonely..
everyday has less and less meaning
wish 2012 would arrive and take us all away
March 13, 2011
You've completely destroyed my love for the celestial bodies.
I can never look at the threesome belt the same way ever again.
they hold too many painful memories.
Strangers or friends?
I don't believe we will ever be close again.
Fuck this.
Thailand was a blast...literally.
boom
the sound of the thunderous guns.
the Artillery at its best.
loved the night sky...the skies so clear...
the stars...like how they used to be.
mosquito infested as well.
HORRIBLE experience I tell you.
so many scabs from all the scratching...
Brr.
RnR...just quite boring.
very very boring.
got more whiskey. scotch whiskey.
so now i got 3 blend and 1 single. LOL.
booking later on.
hopefully can last the week till ACPC.
then...
its 2LT HONG JIAN HAO, GABRIEL.
