am i good company?
u're acting very much different you know.
after the dust settles, you'll see i'm just like anybody. broken, disillusioned and waiting on the right one for change.
don't let it be me. i'm not worthy.
gossip mongers. but i did get a twinge of jealously
wish i were more dashing and charming. then maybe i could have gotten the girl of my dreams. sigh.
Like hell anything would change.
na, I'm just being the usual wet blanket
new year and all and nothing really great has happened to me last past.
haiz.
Just wanting to fill up the hole in me
while it stays empty, I guess I'll continue being a sore thumb.
pffft.
This thoughts don't even seem logical.
Brrr, must I always sound so put out.
I don't know.
But so much has been bothering me lately.
Am I letting them bother me or what?
yea, you don't exactly call a friend down for commissioning ball
but she's not exactly a friend either...
I may have let a cat out during our last meeting.
but I like things to be where they are...mostly.
its almost not worth the alternate ending.
OMG, I'm almost beginning to sound like the manga I'm reading currently..
"The World Only God Knows"
of course, no real god, neither a real plot. good for laughs though.
something I'm in need of a lot of the time.
I want to be confident
I want to be proficient
I want to have "sway"
I want to charm.
maybe my exterior appearance is what's been giving me such a bad name
hey, can't blame me for walking like I'm a beng or smth
its my swagger that gives me my punk-ness.
right...
just realised that I cannot be in the same place for too long.
I'll probably die of boredom. therefore 20 years on this planet is enough, no?
sigh.
I'm really getting sick of life on Earth
and I'm not even a proper Christian yet
think the likes of me would go to Heaven?
what with all my sin of the eyes and flesh.
its pure poison.
Boy, 19, in search of a love that will reach the stars
pst for more info.
