well, seeing that all the easy stuff is out of the way...
left the tankers le...
Bio, Chem, Maths, Econs...
then home free...
in like 1 weeks time...
and still i'm more and more confused...
guess i'm too immature...
God help me...
Chinese was interesting...seeing that i actually attempted to do smth...
what got into me i dunno:)

hope tmr well be GD productive...
if not i can cook myself le...
Ja~ne!

Misery
Hate

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Fun and laughter, bittersweet affection
i dunno, my life's turning even worse...
more topsy-turvy then ever before...
and through it all, i still got me promos...
what more could possibly go wrong?
perhaps failing that promos...seeing that i need to keep me H2s...
sigh, old friends nothing but gusts of wind,
am i to look forward, to cast aside old ties?
guess i'm still in a mess...
GP today was alright...
moderately, just insufficient time...

Life's Life
Nothing You Can Do To Change
Live It As It Is
Go With The Flow

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lalalala
today, moderately alright...
read a lot of GP...guess i enjoyed my time with Pat
thoughtit would have been better if someone else came along...
sickening, though, the amount of time wasted...
hope tmr better,
much better...

Tired

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i dunno,
its fun, ain't it?
going to school when it is not needed,
then mugging till i'm so happy...
which is crazy, and pressure is seriuosly getting to me....
GAH, i hate keng yang, and vanessa,
exams all ended le...
me haven't started...
mugged chem, or tried to...semi-confident i'll score decent,
but i want it to be H3 next year..
and econs ar...nbccb...
oh wells, bio going no where, maths as well...
this stinks sia...
and while studying, something disgusting happened sia
some idiot, went to video me and me frens...
what a fucking intrusion of privacy...
and all to antagonise their own friend..
zzzzzzzzzzzzz

oh wells, so ends a productive day...
hope for the best tmr as well...
life stinks as usual...

Stalked...
This Is Atrocious

{ gone at 22:43 }

yay
tomorrow hoilday!
so i shall head to school...
tuition was alright today,
heard auggie and gang doing their back flips...
i wanna try too:)

1 guy in the middle of 5...
so makes me one too...six girls in a row...
bio test is so dead, i wanna score, not scrape through...
damn...econs, well, i really got nothing to say...
FUCK THIS SHIT

goodnight people
have fun while Promos last

Round This Bush
Dunno When It'll All End

{ gone at 22:39 }

screw it,
u spook me crazy man XY...
zzz...still going to dao you...
no real studying going onm still
this sucks...
wish i put the time playing to studying
why so hard ah, God?

dunno,
fun day, moody day,
RAG fell down!
haha...oops, thats bad, laughing at her...hehe

nice rainy weather, feel all cheery i guess
i miss you so,
and to Cambodia or not?
not very charitable...zzz

Promos
Are
A
FUCKING
Mess

{ gone at 20:14 }

So tired...
and so motivated, finally, after so long,
i can get the gears turning once again, thx to Brother...
he should have made that speech like so much earlier?
zzz
i'm tired,
and i don't care anymore...
its hard, and this aches, my heart and back are killing me...
got small breathing problems again, a sharp spike occasionally when i take a breath
and i can crack my back in dunno how many places...
ah, going to be a paraplegic when i grow up...
and my eyes are killing me, consequence of too many buttons and killing sprees
i love you , my sitting partners...
you make life a little worth living...
and the same goes for dopey, and the not so chio chio bu in front of me...
of course deb too, and CKE...
lives still worth staying around for i guess
a very nice day today,
edwinnie stole my wallet...baka...
lessons were fun, Mr Ong rocks!!!

Lets leave it that

Into your Hands
I Leave My Life

{ gone at 20:38 }

i get the picture...
some people still care...
but dunno, points of fact are not substantial...
someone hor, XYZ, think its funny to dao me all the way hor...
no matter, no need people like them...
still, i worse than conflicted...
i am really really not fit to be anyone's spouse...
gah, this is getting disgusting, and i cannot take it...
sigh, guess i really best be alone, lets be a monk!

monkey that is...
sigh, i'm disgusting,
and guess, this few days, mostly all just angst,
proper recount...sigh,
lovely day, this morn,
coolness of breeze,
good train of studies...
poor lecture, GTH kicked me awake...clown...
tuition, i find it so, well, fun,
i dunno la...

Tired And Bored,
I Love You Still...
As Much As I Want To Forget
You Will Never Leave This Heart

{ gone at 22:18 }

back to the beginning
when i knew no one...
lived in a shell since primary school
limited by my mother, termed 'bad company,'
well at least in my neighbourhood...
and so, grew up with no friends...
lived furthest from my neighbour school...
classmates knew each other, always talking with each other...
was just a shadow then...then up the echelons i climbed,
gained a rebellious attitude...very least, i hurt my mom pretty bad then...
still, scrapped through PSLE and entered MSHS...
another culture shock, wildness to a new degree,
me and the little innocence didn't fit in...
but taint crept in, and I'm still living what it was to be a Marist...
or so i think...
4 years of academic fun and boredom,
surprised myself at the end, to the point of tears of joy...
but with my marks, came the freedom of choice,
and choice i now regret...or maybe not...
but this time round, being a Marist has no more meaning,
being myself has no more meaning...
in from an all guys to co-ed...
still thinking, "am i doing the right thing?" each time i do stuff...
and then came a love burning back...
now rescinded into the corners of my mind...
i dunno anymore...
lived like a ghost with no purpose,
followed and followed to no end...
i'm pathetic...

Love Me Tender,
Love Me Sweet,
Never Let Me Go.
You Have Made My Life Complete,
And I Love You So.

{ gone at 19:53 }

sick to the core
with all the kinetocore...
i cant study right, especially at home...
i cant study as well, when i'm out alone
all my friends have each other...
guess i'm not good to have around huh...
some friends i have...
acquaintances i guess...
class and old buddies alike,
GUESS YOU PEOPLE CAN JUST GO HIDE AND FUCK YOURSELVES

not an unfair statement i hope,
no offense to Edwin Chan...
least you're still somewhere around...

Guess i can finally let go...
don really need a love in my life anyway...
perhaps i'll be like that guy in Taxi...
living beside my mama when i'm 33...
looking upon a wasted youth,
brooding all day long...

still no one listens,
no one really knows me...
i guess i'm a pathetic piece of shit that no one needs
useful here, unwanted next, i hate all of your false concerns
u give me the absolute look of disdain,
the spiteful words, the detestable stares
actions never fit your words, you people are my classmates
lies upon deceit, you people are my ex-classmates
treating me as i was never there, you people are my church mates
i just want somebody to hold me, someone to be my absolute friend
am i so hard to get along with?
can you not just see past my eccentricities?
i yearn attention, cos i need attention...
i'm not a giant made of stone,
i take insults in a way that hurts later...
derogative, how much more can you hurt someone with no esteem?

I've found that shoulder to cry on...
It has always been beside me...
no, i've found 2...left and right


Had A Bad Day
Only Me To Blame
Since No One To Lean On Anyway
I'll Find My Pillow

{ gone at 23:03 }

i just wanna cry it all out
to let the stream flow
will you be that shoulder
that collects the sadness?

afraid not,
you've already got someone else
now be gone and goodbye
i have better things to do with my life

perchance you may, by chance you might,
find the love that blinds your sight
cherish and perish, through the night,
melded as one, embracing under the clear moonlight

{ gone at 17:45 }

I'm in a mess
life is so...roundabout...
i really hope what van says is true...
somewhat, i dunno as well...
not making sense am i?
the point is that, i'm going crazy
just so mad at myself, so...insane...
fickle boy here cannot focus, either on work or emotion
frivolity at its best, i'm still playin away...
to me, saying I Love You, is so mundane
saying that u have that crush on that someone,
so childish...
Ben told me once...
if u like someone, make the move...
better to be hurt early and be healed, rather than drag the agony
well, i'm doing exactly the converse...
indeed it hurts, but...sigh, i'm really so...distressed...
maybe i should just forget the whole thing?
maybe i'm just trying to be with the crowd,
like ya know, having that other someone is cool...or not...
shall i really forget?
maybe indeed, i should let go, free myself from youthful ideas

last night, something went crazy...
it was like, the 4 of us were so...
the moment we said "its finally completed"
those pregnant pauses always creeps into the picture...
then all i could do was feel a sense of loss...
like it was the death of our collaboration...
like there was nothing more ahead, that the alliance would crumble...
sigh, the sad eventuality...

From McDonalds To KFC,
I've Come Up With GabFlurry

{ gone at 17:26 }

100 post...
nth special i guess...
its late...
PW almost done
can't wait till its all over...
nights my love,
nights to my wonder girlfriends in T26
nights to the hero guys in T26
nights to the world

Parisian Nights

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late post, nothing much to say
nice lovely morning,
great line up of lessons...
learnt an average...
Promos, one foot in the grave,
PW, omg...
now then happy to sleep,
cos arrived home just shortly before...
POOR GH, BET NOW THEN REACH HOME...
sigh,
cant wait for this madness to end

I Hate PW

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I Love You
And that's all i'll say.
i don't want this anymore, i just can't take it
my life as a student is ruined,
my life as a christian is going no where
this void, so wrenching...
sometimes, i swear its ;ike a vacuum that collapses on itself
guess i wasn't falling sick,
but still, getting weaker and weaker...
i love animes,
cos they represent a illusion
where everything is rosy and lovely
girls are like flawless,
guys are the coolest...
and the love-dove they experience...
thus, i'm immaterial, i live for fantasies...
sometimes, i think God is one Himself...
today, typical day,
going to fail that bio tst,
day went well, cept that i pon-ed Bravo meet
not that...well, don bother explaining...
sigh, the things i do irk me at times...

Joy And Love
Me And My Nonsense

{ gone at 20:29 }

Amongst the many, I love this nick the most: gaboohongee
no reason, just like the way it blends my name with congee
which is a yummy bowl of porridge...cooked till mush
why am i talking about food?
cos its the few things that actually make me happy
and forget my worries...that's why i binge and indulge
the only stress-free way to destress...
i'm not feeling any better this days...
as the year draws to a close, what have we learnt?
what have we experienced?
for me, its the loss of old friendships,
comrade-ship dissipated, with new ones found,
but i guess, its the loss that overpowers the gain
Stress is subjective,
and i think i have none,
when deep down, i have a heap of it...
read an interesting article given to me by Chia,
speaking about why people are resistant to Christianity.
i think it makes incredible sense...
Emotions stirring, trying to keep them dormant
people keep telling me to take the initiative
not that i'm afraid of failure,
i've failed all my life...but that,
what i have now, i wish to cherish, nothing more
its complex, but no one can ever understand...

Our Mind Speaks Volumes
Our Hearts Unfanthomable
What More Then,
That We Are The Scum Of The Earth?

{ gone at 23:31 }

sianess and more so
i know now the limit of my intelligence
it does not go beyond 0
it is at 0
and that is all
i cant study
the 4 classes of what Mr.Koh told me
i guess i'm the last case
euphoria and yada-yada over
now the dread doom has arrived
i used to think, how to get H3
now, i wonder just how to scrape through...
anyone willing to tutor me, especially in the way of the maths?
going to fall sick soon, migraine going to hit, maybe tmr...
night, you lovers out there
Lovers of God and Satan

Know That You Know
Don't Know That You Know
Know That You Don't Know
Dont Know That You Don't Know

{ gone at 19:15 }

and so, concludes a day most productive
in a long period of time
it still hurts,
and a bloody confliction is in this heart
to love to hate or to just be what i am
i need to devote to work
and to my family
the ones who have put up with my flares
i feel ashamed, to take for granted
what family truly is...
and friends, people who need me and all
people who would care if i'm gone...or not
great day today, made stupid mistakes like playin badminton in the morn
all the way to Bedok...a great waste of time
and then, study study...
XY Eddie KY...
the rest MIA...
i got nothing constructive to say tonight
so goodnight

Misery And 2-Faced
I Will Never Show
My Sorrow For
My Burdens Are Mine
And Mine Alone
Just Like Your's Is Your Own

{ gone at 22:00 }

late night fun
with a dopey girl
what am i to do?
Suicidal and people going emo all of a sudden,
PEOPLE, JUST GET AWAY FROM ME
i like, didn't emo to spread it you ppl ard me....
and seriously, it seems like, that
I TRULY DRAW STRENGTH FROM PEOPLE'S DISTRESS
in the midst of friends having problems, i feel like my own are solved,
that i got nothing to worry no more...
why is that so, so miserable?
I'm love my friends, from the flunctuating Katrina,
to the wacky Deborah...
Dao-Kid Guo Hao,
to Ph.D Norman...and not only just from my class...
or perhaps only from my class...
i guess i have to include Vanessa?
KY is not forgotten,
Leo and XH are part of the gang
Close budds in MSHS 4F,
as well as the OH SO CRAZY GANG OF Earthquake
and Bravo!!!
yet, this morbid freak can draw the pain from others
to make it his joy, his fun
i seriously dunno what's wrong with me...

As Studies Fail, Again And Again
What Will I Do,
When Its Me And The Music?

{ gone at 23:20 }

1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. Write the song name down no matter how silly it sounds.

IF SOMEONE SAYS “IS THIS OKAY” YOU SAY ?
Elmo's got a gun

WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?
Famous Last Words

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
Teenagers

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
最长的电影

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE’S PURPOSE?
所以

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
天使眷恋

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Kurenai

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR PARENTS?
1973

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
爱错

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BESTIES?
Your Guardian Angel

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Friends (Gundam 00)

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
Nobody's Home

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
New Age Girl

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU??
Antoinette Blue


WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
Pictures Of You

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Sen no Yoru wo Koete ( I think its damn apt)

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
Supermassive Black Hole (-.-" no link)

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR?
找自己

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET
Here Without You

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
I'm All About You ( hmmm)

{ gone at 23:19 }

Crazy Hell of a day
cos i somehow, by some fluke
sleeping for 6 hours makes me more tired than 3 hours
damn man, this is nazi...
struggled to stay awake...
and tried to stave off coffee...
cos i think there's a stupid dependence developing...
gah...addicted to MCR...
love the punk rock and rebellious style...


We're damned after all
Through fortune and flame we fall
And if you can stay then I'll show you the way,
To return from the ashes you call

We all carry on
When our brothers in arms are gone
So raise your glass high
For tomorrow we die,
And return from the ashes you call
(Mama, MCR)

{ gone at 22:01 }

Turn away,
If you could get me a drink
Of water 'cause my lips are chapped and faded
Call my aunt Marie
Help her gather all my things
And bury me in all my favorite colors,
My sisters and my brothers, still,
I will not kiss you,
'Cause the hardest part of this is leaving you.

Now turn away,
'Cause I'm awful just to see
'Cause all my hairs abandoned all my body,
Oh, my agony,
Know that I will never marry,
Baby, I'm just soggy from the chemo
But counting down the days to go
It just ain't living
And I just hope you know

That if you say (if you say)
Goodbye today (goodbye today)
I'd ask you to be true (cause I'd ask you to be true)

'Cause the hardest part of this is leaving you
'Cause the hardest part of this is leaving you

{ gone at 22:00 }

Rest? most likely not...
culmulation of the two days,
my rest was less than required for 2 days...
slept like only 6 hours in 2 days...
wow, that's great...
now still no chance to take that rest,
since the day was packed...
early morning, still have to go grandma's
to take the uniform left there...
slept at 3 this morn, woke at 6...
so damn tired...but dad was nice
sent me to school...which was a suprise...
had to down the coffee for nuts...
didnt sustain me no shite...
make me so sick...like can feel the carcinogens working their way...
died in Econs...cos i scored so badly...and at this late stage somemore...
dead le la...bio also going no where, chem somewhere, maths improving...
didnt do bio yet, maths needing completion, chem in the soup..oh my oh me,
i wanna do a techies...SUICIDE!
and, ya, what girl...
so tired tired...maybe that's why GP improved...
suprised that i didn't actually sleep in lecture or tutorials...
time to die,

A Spate Of PW Settled And Done
Truckload School Work Takes Over
Promos Rounding The Bend
Soon It'll All End

{ gone at 21:49 }

nice day, woke up so bleary-eyed...
last night trying my best to do a template for
evaluation and conclusion...
now still up doing that exact same thing...omg...
whole day, so tired...
teased by the class, huh, what girl huh...zzzz
after school,
headed to RAG's house...all 4 us do PW...
she's got a scary mum...but turned out fun...
sama sama with her father...
and ya, cute nephew..taught him about guns, lol...
carry on with PW...
Nights!

The Dread Spectre
Its Name Is PW

{ gone at 23:28 }

i guess i shall blog now
while there's still time around...
this is going to be more irregular in the coming 2 weeks,
for obvious reasons...
bus arriving in 12 mins,
so rushing this to make it on time...
at least,
some work is finally getting done
and with much pleasure...
that i get from realising that i cannot do a single sum...only thing i can do right is playing my PSP and computer...
both which, fortunately, are subsiding...
i'm not happy today,
well at least not anymore...
God made a fool out of me today, guess we're not meant to be?
haha, reading too much out of a single event,
and I'm SUPPOSED TO STUDY WITH HER, not a date...
and well, apparently, the nice teachers of RJC decided to give extra lessons...
so, emo kid?
no, strangely...i'm kind of happy, that she willing to even take a trip with me
so...haha, just happy la,
cos i dunno what to do with her anyway...
so, contented?
sigh

Man Proposes,
God Disposes

{ gone at 18:40 }

a quick type now
lovely day, (always the same descriptions)-.-
went to church, (finally)
for the little ones, the B2B
didn't do a fantastic job, as usual, chatted with a little K2 boy in the end
who had the most fantastic vocabulary for his age...
i mean, i knew stuff like herbivores at P2
this kid was just full of it...
wonders what young ones are taught this days...
had a fantastic lunch...some herbal restaurant at Clarke Quay
courtesy of my Uncle...
off home, slept the whole afternoon off...zzzz
no study, which SUMS UP THE WHOLE DAMN WEEK...OMG...
dead dead dead dead dead dead dead dead...
dinner was normal,
then SOS, sent to Papa's restaurant...
worked off my hands till they itched from all that soap water...
yucks....
and well, lets say, I FEEL GREAT,
but then some shit remebrance of some remedial...
now i could hang myself...
I WANNA GO MEET AT J8 ON TUESDAY...
omg, have a yearning like a dog...
so animalistic....
but but but...NO I NEED TO GO J8, ARRRRRRGH (pulling face now)
spectacular, maybe i'll get over this period of life sooner than expected...

Animalistic Nature...
I May Get Married At This Rate...
:)

{ gone at 22:54 }

today
great day...Npcc...over at ZhongHua...
some Challenge Shield competition...
dunno why i even went over...
not really part of Maris, not really part of St.Gab's
a half-ling, if you would have that...
oh well, had a strange time, at the butt end of Shafiq's cracks...
though he did crack all the other CIs too...
Maris did so miserably, dunno what to say man...
Wednesday, they likely to get hell...
Had an initiation, also led by Shafiq...now i guess i'm part of St.Gab's
played a little Burnout with Starfish...
owned and got owned...Road Rage i own, Maniac him...
Got over to get a new set of uniform...
finally the confidence will settle in...
no study, i feel so miserable...
Church tmr, didn't do devotion...
PSP stinks now...and computer as well...
i dunno anymore, where my life will lead...

Happy Birthday Chia...


As I Continue This Endless Monotone
Will Anyone Be My Spark, My Breath Of Life?

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Recently I've been,
Hopelessly reaching
Out for this girl,
Who's out of this world.
Believe me.
She's got a boyfriend
He drives me round the bend
Cos he's 23
He's in the marines
He'd kill me
But so many nights now
I find myself thinking about her now.
'Cause obviously,
She's out of my league
But how can I win
She keeps draggin' me in and
I know I never will be good enough for her.
No, no
Never will be good enough for her.
Gotta escape now
Get on a plane now yeah
Off to L.A and that's where I'll stay, for two years.
I'll put it behind me(I'll put it behind me)
Go to a place where she can't find me, oh.

'Cause obviously,
She's out of my league,
I'm wastin' my time
'Cause she'll never be mine
I know i never will be good enough for her.
No, no
Never will be good enough for her
She's outta my hands
And I never know where I stand
Cos I'm not good enough for her
He's good enough for her (for her, for her)
'Cause obviously,
She's out of my league,
I'm wastin' my time
'Cause she'll never be mine
I know i never will be good enough for her.
No, no
Never will be good enough for her

{ gone at 23:02 }

dead and deader...
studies not exactly catching up right?
how's it feel man...
great? fantastic? gah...so caught up with stuff...
i forgot the necessary things to do...
like cut my hair! omg, tmr, NPCC...
and my hair is like...LONG?
zzz, how sia, how indeed...gah, shall thin it myself...
better not kill myself sia...lol...
fun day la today, nothing much to say about...
no ache, though i still think about her...or not...
life's not about one person, but everyone in your life...
tuition, fun, dread, tired...3 hours of maths,
what more sia...wished i paid more attention though...
cos i may regret it...
back to ah ma house...she looking so blur, my ahma...
mooncakes, dinner, home...
summary of 3 words...now just waiting for day to pass,
guess i shall hit some books...

It's Not An Infatuation
But I Can't Call It Love
Attraction Seems Understating
Affection Is What It's Not

{ gone at 20:47 }

i dunno...
what say you?
i'm a falling sick...sickly old man that i am...
in both senses ^^
morning, wake up damn early...cos remedial was like at 8 am...
then realise, never really prep anything...
Mr Kuang's a nice guy, people, you should give him a break...
then use the 2 hours...now can do substitutions!
or so i think...
played ball...very sweaty and smelly ball game...
finally took a breather, owned some ppl...
noob bully noobier...sigh...
well, accuracy!
then, with the same 4 ppl at winnie's house
we went to PS...met Adee...long time no see...
fault on me part...haha...
chat chat..malu-ed meself...
watched wall-e...nice show...great for environmental propaganda..
haha, enjoyed my moment there though...
then home, then tuition...
but that's great, had fun with sardine girl and moo...
now at home, stoning...
sleeping now...

Great Times With Friends
Times Like This Should Never End

{ gone at 22:36 }

wake up call?
know more?
or no more?
its hard...of maybe just a conformity
silly old me...who needs somebody?
maybe its time to let go...let go of what has been said and done...
let go of every dream and reality
of false hopes and turnabouts
and contemplation of the damn future...
maybe i'm a quitter
quitter for my own good...
damn this shite...
today...
remedial, remedial...
quite fun...tmr, more remedial..
chock full of shite, nothing more...damn this shite..damn it...
chatted on msn with an old bud and a homo
what more man, just talking to good friends...
i can stand it, that my mood just fades away,
living for the present when budds are ard..sigh

A Time To Rest
A Time To Work
A Time To Play
Maybe Time To Love

{ gone at 21:06 }

well...
something brightened my day...
5 people know about it...one of them oblivious to that fact
which will then come to be that 4 ppl know that i was made happy...
haha, or so i think...or they think...
its so easy to wear a false mask...
today, mood definitely went up...duh...it like, RAINED?
rained till my hearts content...and good food, good friends...
only an ass could remain like yesterday...
still, productivity went out the window ya?
haha...see la, cannot be in any accomodation friends...not with us still not feeling the pressure...
maybes i need to run...maybes i need to do smth else...
i dunno...haha, i dunno everythin it seems...
well, today went well,
tasty breakfast...
dumb suggestion...
great lunch/dinner
stupid time spent...
at least i cleared some doubts...hehe...
aches still there, heart sore as usual...
i could burst one day with the stupidity in this chamber of mine
all right...i'm jealous...jealous that i cannot risk jeopardising what i share now...which isn't much...and, i feel...so...inferior...
sigh, this sucks...
i do want you, but i noe your meant for someone else?
i want to hold you in my arms
do the cliche things that everyone else does
to watch the sun set and rise
.............................................
romance is for others, i guess,
back to the shell that's reserved for silly old me

A Cell I've Made For Myself
Only Few Hold The Key
Will You Join The Crew?

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Emo again...
sigh, will this never end?
my mood swings are so, pendulous...
from one extreme to the other, i hardly find even ground
from end to end, the energy passes, back and forth, back and forth
and like perpetual motion, i will never attain what i wish with my heart...
the longest yearnings, the earnest seeking...
yet i feel like a rat, lusting after the beautiful swan...
its after the few years, that i've been hit with the relevation
of how much i know not about you
your haunts
your likes
your...life...
and yet i claim to be your friend...
i feel like that geek beside the beauty queen
i fluster when i speak to you, never wiping off the smile of the joker
i feel like a fool, and, and...sigh...

today...wonderful day...
quite a joke actually...woke up late...only to realise its the hols...
then, disaster i guess, in 2 minds to study and to not to...
now as 1 day of the precious 7 have been thrown out the window,
HOW MUCH DO YOU ACTUALLY THINK YOU CAN ACHIEVE GABRIEL?
will not stay in the house...
i shall throw myself out of it...this little i must attempt...
Vinee and me, had a little chat...
Sean and I, had a little chat...
what to make of it, i dunno...
who wanna be with an ass-clown like me?

A Stand-up Comedian Is What I'm Not
The Butt Of The Joke Is What I Am
A Nightingale Is What I Wanted To Be Gifted As
Turns Out As Melodious As Stairboard Creaks
A Heart Of Ice,
Eyes Of Malice
And A Touch Of Stone

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SUNDAY 30 AUGUST 2008

haha...a littel past the midight mark, so ya, must backdate!
didnt go church, slept in today...didnt feel particular holy...sigh
still, had fun at home, just sleeping...need to catch up ah, if not die...
then, go Kat's house...had a ball of a time...
movies, walks, movies...
finished with a little basketball...
oh wells, day passed so quickly...didnt really had a chance to catch a breather...
life's like that...

And So, As Another Day Passes,
What Have You Done With It?

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