Another day has come and gone away
still the same old guy, now with even more heaps of guilt and hurt
maybe i think too much...
maybe i don even have that brain to think...
maybe I'm just a good for nothing,
good-for-nothing son,
good-for-nothing brother,
good-for-nothing friend,
good-for-nothing acquaintance...
just a waste of space, waste of the care and concern from friends and family...
not that my family knows anyway...or cares...
family of church is the same...only the few who show genuine concern,,,
the rest, maybe not hypocrites, just people who don wish to step out of their comfort zone
so what can i do? 4 years, and the only friends around are those who I've known for like my entire christian life...the rest? known them since i stepped in, yet still no more than cordial hellos...what a two sided coin, the reality of church really is...
on to school...
well, started with an adrenaline rush,
made it to school on the dot,
cos i rushed back home to retrieve a book...
so morning, mainly just high...high till just before school end...
then looked at the 2 people to my side, then fell into the precipice once again
spooked the people around me,
cos i started singing crazy and tune-less jumbo...
and let myself and friend down...
cant do a simple task for nuts sake, if this keeps up, this group will fall apart...
we have too many differences, too many schedule clashes...
and still i cannot find focus...
and still tomorrow must continue...
and still i have to live on,
for good or for worse...
