and so, seriously...
GP sucks to the core...
my teacher, who's undoubtely the best around,
gave us a task, to write a 2 page AQ in 30 min
guess what, failed to do even 1 page...
what needs to be done?
its not like i didnt try...its like a mental mind-block...
i cannot put the words to paper...i listen , i read...
the many phrases that my class can come up with...
and yet, for all my vocabulary...nothing emerges...from this useless mass of protein...
from that stupid shit of gray matter in between the skull...
friends, its not about looking back...i cant even move forward!
maybe i need more time management...
sigh, semi-distracted now...
been days since played dota...and didnt enjoy one shit of it...
tomorrow, i feel even more sorrow...
cos there's basketball training?
na...many more stuff to go around...
dunno why, i hate anything physical
i used to love sports, to run, swim...
now...i cant bear to sweat, cant bear to do anything sweaty...
feel like a sissy boy, worse than girls...
yet, seriously...i just hate running now...
no stamina anymore...at least not enough to suit the current pace i run at...
gah...irritance...
hate me more, i feel very isolated from myself...
feel so...tired...like somehow...sigh, cant explain it...
PW...no motivation to do anything about it...
just feel like throwing in the towel...
and ya, mystery friend came online today...
had the a very fun and animated chat...
miss her so much...why u had to go?
maybe your leaving left a hole that no one else in class could fill...
now i feel tears in my eyes...its platonic love...
sigh...distance may separate us, but i'll always treasure this friendship,
this short period of time we had...miss you much...Baby girl wants her russian witch back!
Disfigured Beyond Recognition
A Scar I'll Bear For Life
Flash Burns Of Hate
Lacerations Of Love
And Fractures Of The Mind
