Lovely way to start a day...
indeed it pours on a wonderful Sunday Morning
not going to church for the few weeks now...
mugging without God? Sigh, i dunno...
Love Him still...i guess...
just not putting my faith where the fellows are...
damn, just feeling so down...
the people around me, christians and all...
just so depressing, to be with them...
the coldness and chill...
sigh...not just christians, even my family?
my friends, i feel so distant...
its like, everyone has their own other buddy...
i feel...like no one regards me as such...
by lip service, someone is close to me...
other than that...its like...let down again and again,
till the "best friend" thing lost its meaning to me
no one to relate to, no one to really really be with...
Brothers from afar, sisters from shores within reach
maybe i'm being selfish...but just maybe,
this freaksoul is really a lone wolf...
somehow, somewhen, down the line...
Love has eroded...
I find that clinging to that thread of affection,
that fibre of miniscule hope...
it sort of drove me insane...
now back to square 1, with no one left important to me
how much more can i take?
how many more people will i let down?
i strive to look for answers, and like always, find more questions...
then someone insensitive will come around to try to make me rear a head of anger...
but i'm too tired to even lift a finger...
guess this is the end...
A Facade Of Happiness,
A Mirage Of Merriment
A Mask Of Smiles
