I'm in a mess
life is so...roundabout...
i really hope what van says is true...
somewhat, i dunno as well...
not making sense am i?
the point is that, i'm going crazy
just so mad at myself, so...insane...
fickle boy here cannot focus, either on work or emotion
frivolity at its best, i'm still playin away...
to me, saying I Love You, is so mundane
saying that u have that crush on that someone,
so childish...
Ben told me once...
if u like someone, make the move...
better to be hurt early and be healed, rather than drag the agony
well, i'm doing exactly the converse...
indeed it hurts, but...sigh, i'm really so...distressed...
maybe i should just forget the whole thing?
maybe i'm just trying to be with the crowd,
like ya know, having that other someone is cool...or not...
shall i really forget?
maybe indeed, i should let go, free myself from youthful ideas
last night, something went crazy...
it was like, the 4 of us were so...
the moment we said "its finally completed"
those pregnant pauses always creeps into the picture...
then all i could do was feel a sense of loss...
like it was the death of our collaboration...
like there was nothing more ahead, that the alliance would crumble...
sigh, the sad eventuality...
From McDonalds To KFC,
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