I want to die, really
i really really really want to die
enough "really"s?
i suddenly have no more will to live
I'm really really fed up
so sick of someone's cold shoulder,
for i try not to be possessive, for our lives are like poles apart,
so different, so i have no clue why u fell for me, and likewise
in fact, i don't even noe if its real or not, or just page service
Jealousy? maybe that's why i try to spite you as well...
and its not just about love...for love is nothing, at least in this world of mine
introverts stay introverts,
they belong in their worlds,
I belong in my own world, why did i even bother?
bother to make friends? after all, I'm such an oddity
bother to render my services to NPCC? after all, I'm no leader
bother to even try to love, after all, who needs one so rough
bother to be a Child Of God...sometimes, i don feel anything for that church, and now that I've lost the motivation to stay, i feel like leaving God all over and over again...
bother to be a friend? after all, no one really needs me
its like where i go, chaos follows,
where i go, I'm not significant
whether I'm there or not, I'm of no hindrance, but of no help
I'm here, and not here, am i just a physical apparition to you?
no words of comfort will help, for how can words reach an apparition's ear?
go ahead and scold me, I've been scolded all my life, makes no difference anymore
go on and ignore me, ITS easy to miss
notice me? no, just a heat blur in the air,
I'm nowhere...
denying my birthday, so that I would have never been born
Ah, what's the use...
The Baby In Me
Destroyed, Hammered And Erased
