By telling Patrick all that stuff
i guess its officially over in my own heart?
that i have learnt to let go, and let go quickly
its been an eventful 2~3 days
seeing that much time had been wasted in travelling
I'm terribly confused, seriously, i dunno what direction to take now
its okay to be rejected i suppose, but could she have not told me blatant lies?
It burns, and i've given up this kind of childish entertainment...
but seeing QN and Jess just now...i'm nothing but full of tears
i'm pathetic, and useless
couldn't do my Promos properly,
not handling schedule clashes appropriately
not teaching cadets and leading by example
what more?
on the eighth, on the way back to camp, saw JF and AK on their way to celebrate ur Bdae Keng...hahaz...and...never mind
St'Gab's has more than been a 2nd home to me now...
i thank the CIs and TOs, for their gentle encouragements...and for their warm welcome that they have presented to me...
My phone has spoilt...and all that time i was so worried, cos i wanted to contact her
and it was a show i guess, cos her reply to me was just a direct up-end
to what she said before...AH, FORGET IT...
but sweetheart, i don blame you, and truly, all i wanted to do was to be his substitute...till the day u forgot him, or got over...and now that you did...do i still need to maintain this proximity?
and now that i've also given up RJC...
how many more will i throw away?
what other things will i give up, for the sake of nothing?
the class will be split into so many others
can i take it?
Lastly, finally obtained my 1-Star Kayaking
held concurrent with my camp...
2x9 hrs of sunburn, but the most disappointing thing to happen,
was that people pulled out over some matters
but maybe i'm too quick to judge
i'm a guy, i suppose...and gals...well...i agree that swimming in shit was not amusing...lol
still, i wanna congrats those who came through...especially you Baby Mum
Muchas Gracias
Considerations And Inconsiderations
Heartbreak And Regret
The Shoulder I Want To Cry On
Is But A Fantasy
For The Only Blades To Lie On
Are The 2 That Are On Either Side Of My Head
