today, was the most confusing day,..of the year, so far...
Chinese New Year celebrations, with much fanfare, we had yusheng and such
and the dance performances were great, drama equally chill
ODAC served as a great finisher too...
but more then ever, i feel incredibly hurt,
that the eyes i really yearn for, are the eyes gifted to another
to say i read too much, that, perchance, may be true
but what can i do, but feel jealous?
if i cannot be with you, i just want to be beside you
but i'm not one to say anything, for i carved this path for myself...
i hardened this shell of mine
placed impregnable walls up around myself...
will you be like the Israelite procession
that tore down the walls of Jericho?
but looking at you now,
i have little hope, that you would want to have anything to do with me
so i shall lay down my arms and put down my pride
and forget that i ever was your friend
i've based my new year resolutions on you as motivation
i think now, i've no need to resolve to do anything anymore
The tides have turned, the wind has gone
back to the hole i once dug
to find comfort in solitude
to seek rest in Baby Girl's arms
God, help me make the right decision