today was awesome.
Airsoft BB pellet shooting was really imba.
and thrilling
maybe exhilarating.
WHEW.
harsh on the pockets, but really really much fun.

now aching with all the bruises...
in more places than one.
physical and emotional.
gimme a kiss, it will be bliss.
sigh.
A

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you are a mystery to me.

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there is no peace at home.
neither is there anywhere else.
Better stop play WoW like there's nothing else to do.
I could probably kill myself trying to level up.

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I think I'll make early for school tmr.
seeing as I'm doing shit at home, both literally and figuratively.
i see stars more than i see As.
Have you heard? meteor shower on its way.
now only if I can just do a bit of switching...
yup, you go there, and YOU go there,

Ah, wonderful.
now the stars will look just perfect tonight.
but then again, this is just a fantasy.
where i get to kill everyone in my dreams.

BAM.

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i got lamed by GH big time.

http://www.leekspin.com/

wdf guys, wdf.
it never ends.
and i only got to 6 minutes... :(

econs.
Idk what to do about it.
I sure hope i can excel in it.
but what I'm doing says otherwise.
sigh.

sweet. blueberries.
Primrose.
my body trembles in ecstasy.

At times i just want to tell you and hope you reciprocate
at times i just want to tell you, so that you can tell me no and i can live my life
at times i just want to tell you, so that i can hold you tight at night.
and at times i just want to tell you, so that you could hate me all your life.
I don't know which and I don't know what I want.
I shouldn't torment myself.
i really really shouldn't

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No such thing
No such thing
No such thing.

sigh.
such a dreamy voice...enthralled.
I know a girl
she puts the colour inside my world.
Blue, blue blue berries.

what a blue world.
if only everything were blueberries.
blue as the sky
blue as the sea.
blue as my mood that drives me to sleep.

ah, blueberries

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I wanna run through the halls of my high school
i wanna scream at the top of my lungs!
wooooo

little talents of the music world,
playing beats eternal.

I have the instrument
and just a bit of talent
could i have you as my audience of one?

but it has come where I've run myself dry.
glad for it though.
I've not been me for too long.
starved from my toys and stuff
abandoned for this exam.
will i ever grow up?

I hate piano music
they haunt my every moment everytime i listen to them
too beautiful
too wonderful.

something only people who can dream appreciate.

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a really fucking wasted day.
sleep some more la
and now WoW.
My A's just halfway through, have been screwed.

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It's not working!!!

:(
me sad.
me don't know why suddenly sad,
but sad.

sigh.
It won't work, right?
it just won't...
faltering and stumbling every step of the way to you.

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a touch screen phone is insane difficult to use.
i swear.
zzz

Friday 13th indeed.
Maths was a bummer.
and i got ass-raped by two people in SC.
ZZZ...

oh wells, what a wonderful day...

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a moment for the poet's play
till there's nothing left to say.

do you have an honest heart as your compass?

I'm so going to kick ass.
I must, I will.
Chem and Bio kicked me.
NO MORE.

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yup, love to see cat fights :)

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I wish for this night time to last for a lifetime
The darkness around me - shores of a solar sea
Oh how I wish to go down with the sun
Sleeping
Weeping
With you

just amazing,
breath taking.
Nightwish, nightwish...

I got killed by Bio.
and now I'm really too damn dog tire for Chem
gonna sleep a wink,
and see how things go.

wow, tongue tied and ear clogged when i talked to you.
zzz

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the little blessings that my God gives.

down 15 or more.
and that's the best bet.
but it could be worst.
Thank you Jehovah.

now onto a crucial paper.
Bio and GP.
wow.

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And so it begins
a little more and boy will we have a ball of a time
and after that, even more freedom :)
maybe a little dish of affection may be served as well.
But we'll leave that for the last...haha

Is there anyone out there,
cos its getting harder to breathe...
Whew!

God granted, we'll pull through
we'll all do it.
I promise that.

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I feel useless.
(maybe its true)
My father hates me
(it probably is true)
but in the 1st place he never was a good father
(maybe that's true too)
he was never around
(sometimes)
he only knew how to work
(24/7, you gotta be kidding me)

sigh.
I'm going to get depression.
Its crazy. My smiles are so fake, my laughter so fake.
I live for the moment.
each moment is different, like a day is different from the other (which is also not very different)
one moment I'm all laughter
one moment I'm all pain and suffering
one moment I'm all friends and chum
the next I'm this loner.
I'm...unstable.
but probably sane the next minute.
I hate myself.

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haha, social experiment worked.
FB has apparently ruled everyone's lives.
and I proved something else.
we all really do just fade to black.
at least there were still a few good men.
and one lady.
maybe subtract 2 real men and add 2 more pseudo-ladies.
and at the same time, remove one real woman and make her a pseudo-man.
haha.

"Last year is a stark contrast to this year. Discuss"

bloody hell, quarreled with the father this morn.
good reminder that every other day is the same as the last.

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I pray for the day.
you and I would simply fly away

Master.
of puppets.

If there's nothing to live for the next day,
everyday a repeat, it would seem rational to kill yourself.
irrationality is our point.

Pascal's Wager.
and God knows I'm playing that game.
Poor me.
Legally liable to be charged in a court before I even knew it.

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I often forget that I was once my brother's age.
I often forget that they too, have their own lives outside of home.

I'm bleeding inside.
When a person finally and truly leaves you,
I just need to mend...what?
there's nothing left behind.
not love, oh tosh.
Its a secret public affair, a dirty laundry none care to mention.

Me blogging this early is clear: I'm being driven nuts
by guilt of 2 kinds.

I don't know where my loyalties lie.
and I don't want to be torn into 2 or more again.
Once is enough, and its difficult to rescind what has been said and done.

Japanese songs and music have a surreal feel to it
it wraps you...it calms you...
a myriad of wonders, the Human body.

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is there a descriptive word better than the word fuck?
I desperately need one.

I just spent my time doing maths.
guess what, Mr. Careless jumps into the scene.
Words cannot describe the exasperation that I feel, everytime i do maths
its like THERE'S NO POINT.
and I can't be careful either.
cos I only know when I'm careless after the answer comes out.
FUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCK!!!!!

Thx for the treat fellas.
I really appreciate.
and I'm glad to bite the dust with you guys...haha

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I want to thrash my com.

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10 mins a day to keep my addiction away.
It works.

so in a jiffy I'll say this ditty
you keep screaming when here I am calling
are you too loud to hear me whispering?
or is your wish to silence me with your voice?

My aid to you is nothing it seems,
but in 5 days to come
a kiss from my fleur-de-lis
to say none the least
would be the greatest bliss.

but a wish would be more than I could ask for
a kiss even more.
hope is destructive, hope will kill.
and I will kill to have that little hope put still.

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