Leaving for artillery in 2 weeks time,
and I'm actually beginning to get quite sick of the army and the system
what, we actually get extras for doing a volunteer system
a.k.a the armskote.
and not only that, the 3 damn extras have to be converted to confinement
and a defaulter's parade...wdf.
its not fucking fair that we wake up early, clear rust and sleep late
yet get punishments for not maintaining PAPERWORK.
damn the policy governing firearms in sg
and damn that asshole who took the SAR 21 out of camp so many years ago.
going to see a certain person soon.
rumors are spreading and another fella is jealous i think.
but what more can i ask from a friend.
its not like we're lovers or anything. its just an event.
I swear, I'm becoming more of a wolf than anything else.
its this overwhelming predator hunger...
fucking army staffed with too many guys
and i'm going nuts.
got an appointment that forces me to act differently
from a bubbly active loudmouth to a man with responsibility.
there's this torrent that is just building up
and gaps are forming.
cracking
under intense pressure
so many things
that I cannot tell anyone
maybe Tabitha
but I don't want to bore her with army stuff
the anger, the hurt it just burns
and just when I thought I could actually grow up
I'm just back into the pits again.
It's so fucking painful
