must it always be this spiralling of good, bad, good, bad vibes all the time?
i swore...ok, not swore but really doing my best to stay off cigarettes and cut down on alcohol...which has been successful but to wat cost? sure, i felt good, felt clean but did i hav real fun last night? and when i was always in vice, my life at home felt so much better. now that i get to find all the good things in life again, my life at home becomes so unbearable.
its almost ridiculous. seriously. must there always be a low point somewhere. MUST THERE?
