Guess I'll rather hurt...
than feel nothing at all?
but having been hurt so many times before...
its strange...masochistic
I don't know what I truly want at this point in my life
living day to day...
wasting the hours, hoping that I'll die soon enough perhaps.
Its really pointless I think
I really have nothing much to live for...
my belief in God makes me want to die all the more
but think I'll never see beyond the pearly gates.
I'm just not looking forward to anything
my soul, so broken
hurting so much.
eternity is now...every second aching.
I don't want to live with myself anymore...
wish I could change...
someone brilliant
but this are just my rantings...
haiz. my heart hurts so much
soft lips, gentle caresses.
