How stupid.
throwing money down the club like that
Someone remind me not to go there ever again.
Cigarettes, drink...
sometimes I wonder what I looking for.
:/
someday.
I'll find out why I'm here on this Earth.
till then, everyday seems to be a chore.
not emo, just saying things as it is.
If I can be sure that there would be no afterlife...
then I'll live to the end.
but if there's no end....then I see no damn point in carrying on and on.
meaningless existence.
you can gyrate all you want babe
but you'll end up the only one hurting
crave all the attention you want
the impression of a loose girl.
but my heart breaks everytime I see you cry
hurting, but not wanting to do anything
not able to do anything
Don't dance the night away
sway in my arms instead.
where the cherry blossoms go
there my heart must follow
A Japanese love story
filled with hardships plenty
tragedy. memory
a great regret fills the hollow.
lost at sea
the ship sails aimlessly
my boat with nowhere to go
I'm tortured to no end
seeking some peace
I'm feeling really heavy right now.
pure utter meaningless.
the night was Comms ball.
but I didn't feel a thing.
except for the ride back home.
that was the best time i had the whole night
I'll love to talk like that again.
just you and me and a little palm tree.
but I won't press
for my head knows best
that the fleeting black
would lead to another mess.
I'm indebted to you
but now i hope that my payment made good
friends for life.
sorry.
I'm feeling alot of inner turmoil at the moment
it shouldn't bother anyone, really
but I'm really lonely at times.
and sometimes...
my heart would just melt
I wish you would see me differently
but its okay.
there's too much stigma behind
lost baggage.
and I don't think I'm ready to make up yet
maybe you're going out of your way totally
but somehow...the bonds have been shattered
building on ruins will only cause trouble in the future
but at least, we don't hate each other anymore.
commissioning, comms ball, unit life
significant landmarks supposedly
but there's really no purpose to what I'm or have been doing.
someday I'll find that meaning.
sigh.
