one way street with no return.
that's life ain't it.
just sigh.
there's too much for me to take recently
maybe I need some support from the stress of things
you know, those that I've no control over
things just slip my mind, my meaning less and less.
my future lies in His hands no doubt.
making it my own doesn't seem to get me the results I need.
I guess I can never leave God behind.
no matter how little time i spend with Him in prayer
no matter how much I curse scream and hate Him in defiance
His love always touches me and serves as the all important reminder:
I was created to be loved.
either by family, friends, girlfriend or not...
I'm loved. It just needs a quiet moment and time to realise all these and more
Friends show concern, family give support
but sometimes I just cannot find a way for my thirst to be quenched.
everyday a repeat of the old me, the me I want to change.
mature people don't talk about change...they just do.
but I'm just counting on 2013 that the world will end
now why THE FUCK did I come up with that silly notion????
slowly, consuming
my lust, my greed
one day I'll be seen through for who/what I really am.
sigh,
its getting late.
Maybe the army really wasn't for me.
berating myself all day won't work wonders.
time to find out the answers to the questions people are asking of me.
I hate me.
