A million things I want to say
but who to hear them anyway?
I'm very confused with the pain
but I retain my senses through the faze.
I have a severe lack of direction right now.
if I'm not getting my Uni this year,
then for what purpose have I signed on?
it was merely for the sake of my education,
but with things not going as planned
and ORD impending, have I made another grave choice
one that I've come to regret
must I really come to accept that I'm bound by failure
that I cannot make a decision that will make me look back with pride,
that would set me at ease? where have I not seen and deliberated long enough?
is my entire life a mistake?
I think it matters not if I was born this way or that
nothing under my hands will come to fruition
and I curse the day I was conceived
the union that gave me life
inadvertently sealed my death.
